Expecting from Friends…

Yesterday, I was having a chat with my friend, my mood was off, so he asked the reason behind that. Following is the edited chat with him.

Me: Hey, How was your day?
Friend: Good, but I was too busy and I am tired as well.
Me: Ooh, See you then
Friend: Come on, I am not that much tired , hows you?
Me: Ooh Ok, me feeling a little off.
Friend: Why?
Me: Well, Has got multiple problems, so thinking on those.
Friend: Why, whats wrong? May I ask?
Me: Actually, I am not good at managing / understanding relations. I can’t differentiate in between friends, unable to make friend hierarchy. I treat all equally. Even, I can’t say No to strangers for any help
Friend: But whats wrong in it? helping others is good.
Me: No doubt, but the problem is, after helping them I expect from them.
Friend: Ooh, then its serious problem man.
Friend: Is this related to your blog post “My mind has been exploited?”
Me: Not Exactly, but you can say… !
Friend: hmmmmm
Me: That is why, these days I am serious and observing others. Besides having many good, high qualified, talented friends around me, feeling lonely.
Friend: Relax yaar.. I know you are emotional and soft hearted person, but don’t be that emotional. It happens.
Me: well, I have been thinking like, I am like my friends. All of my friends are extra-ordinary including you but me, I have got nothing in myself, that is why probably I feel alone even being with them.
Friend: Who says that?…Don’t even think of it. man you have lot of qualities.
Me: Well, I don’t think so…
Friend: ……… Chat going on, going on
Me: ………….. Chat going on, going on
Me: anyways leave this issue, I hope I will manage to get out of this issue soon. BTW, Tomorrow, I am leaving for Islamabad to attend NASCON 2007 at FAST Islamabad Campus.
Friend: Are you going to participate in any competition?
Me: Yes, I am going to participate in Engineering Problem Solving Competition. Hoping for the best.
Friend: Best of luck man.
Me: Thanks, Now me leaving, Tomorrow I have paper of Multimedia Communication as well.
Friend: Good luck for paper… and Yes, don’t think too much Mr.Innocent
Me: . Ok.. bye
Friend: Bye, Take very good care of yourself

Signed out and started studying, but Yet I am not done with my thoughts… still going on…. !.

My mind has been exploited…

Sometime back I was the person who used to say “Love might exists but it’s not gonna event come near to me. People just waste their time thinking about it, how can one give access of their mind to others?? , how can one invest their much time for other and how can one bear the pretences of others… ufff”

But these days I am feeling like some one has got the access code of my mind and un-willingly she is exploiting my mind with my own code. I am trying hard to restore my mind to the last working condition but I am unable to. I pass my much time thinking about her because of that I remain in tension and my mood becomes off and I am unable to do many things. Many notice this and asks are you OK? And I am like umm…..Yes.

I am not sure whether its love / merely an attraction. But I love the qualities she posses, her attitude, her manners, her behavior, her talking style, her dressing style and everything about her. I want her to be with me and pass whole time with me, I can’t see her in trouble, I don’t want her to request some one, I don’t want any one to order at her, I want her to be queen / princess who just have the command over the whole world.

Still thinking, is it love? If yes then it is going to create a lot of problems for me. God, please help me :S

Holi, Festival of Colors

Holi is the religious and social event of hindus, It comes every year near March month. We play with colors, pray and eat a lot on Holi which continues for 2 days. To know why we celebrate this, Kindly visit http://www.indiaexpress.com/rangoli/holi.html

Well for past 2 years, I have been celebrating this event at Karachi, couldn’t go to my hometown because of mid-terms. But, this year I got the chance to celebrate this festival with my family and hometown friends. It was fun being there.

Start of the holi was good, when my younger brother asked me there is someone for you outside waiting, I said who is there early in the morning, he said No its 9am. With sleepy eyes I went outside and my siblings were supposed to target me, one of them was having water and other was having dry color in his hands, one was ready to tear my cloths, all just attacked at once on me and I was Ooh God what happened? And all said Happy Holi 

Then my father asked me to get ready with white dress for temple. I followed and it was around 11am, we reached at the temple and saw hundreds of people over there having different colors on their face, some faces were giving white; some were giving red color look. I was feeling good, every one around was happy and busy in dancing, putting colors on friends, eating the food and playing with water. After playing for 3 hours with color and water, I came back and tried a lot to remove color from my body especially face, it took an hour and finally my family could recognize me then.

I took some snaps from the mobile of my brother and I was shocked to see myself, I was similar to Dracula. Those photos can be used to scare kids. I can provide you those photos on demand. Each costs $10

Living on the Edge…!

I remember clearly while I was traveling back from hometown (Ghotki) to Karachi for my 8th semester with a friend. Actually my friend was saying to catch the bus @ 10pm but I insisted him for 8:30pm coz I was supposed to go to my university next day and bus takes approx. 10 hours for Karachi and my university bus timing is 7:30am.

Friend: “So, Are you happy now”,
Me: Yes… but why
Friend: Wait and Watch…!

I was thinking why he is saying, suddenly I heard people crying at back for the seat. Actually Bus conductor allocated a seat to two people and they were fighting, after 10 minutes problem got resolved and I heard “Dude… It is your city that is why you are talking a lot, come to my city, I am gonna show you, what I am “… and Un-consciously I said loudly “Very Good, Keep the spirit up….” and Oopc… Why the hell I am involving in them…

Now, there was a silence for 1 hour, It was hot inside, so I requested Driver to switch on the AC, he said “OK”, he switched it on and I took rest for half an hour, again Its hot my friend said, I was like Why? AC is on, he said NO, its off. Again, I said to driver but this time he ignored. Again after sometime I said he ignored. A person sitting near me went to driver and conversation took place.

Person: Why don’t you switch on the AC?
Driver: Who is gonna pay for it? Your dad…?
Person: $@#$#$##~! … You don’t know me, you son of —-, neither you nor your bus will go to the destination safely. Apologize else I am taking my pistol out…
Driver: I am Sorry.

Thank God, driver said sorry but again he didn’t switch on the Ac …. My friend was getting angrier at me … that night I was sweated and was helpless to do anything….